just to share something with u guys.

dont u find its really annoying when everyone expects u to have the best grade ever?
i mean, yeah, i chose the triple sciences route, (i dont even noe what for?)
so if i dont get good grades, does it mean i gotta go jump down the building?
yes, i chose this route. i should strive on. but along the way i would also need love, care, concern, and most of all SUPPORT.
yes u may think scoldings are a form of encouragement.
but didnt u think, before we could feel that encouragement, your words could sting and HURT us?
for me, i am very sensitive. i think more than i should and misunderstand many people many times. you would say this is wrong, your must change.
but dont u understand? I CANT CHANGE. its my character. i was born this way. and dont forget, you molded me when i was young. everything i know now, you taught me.
you said u dont have high expections for me. i have evidence.

3years ago, i just got my PSLE results. At that time, you were working. You had told me to call you once i got my results. so i did.
Me : Mummy??
Mum : Yah??
Me : Wo na dao cheng ji liao.(i got my results)
Mum : Har? Duo shao? (really? how much?)
Me : 226.
Mum : silence.... okay lorh. hui lai zai jiang(okay, we'll talk when i come back)

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When you came back, we talked. You asked me.
"WEI SHEN ME BU SHI NA 240 DUO?"
"WHY DIDNT YOU GET 240+?"
you totally broke my heart okay!
i mean, i worked so hard, i got my best, and this is what i get?
i expected you to pat me on my back and say good work.
i know you wanted me to get 240+ so that i can get into the same school as jiejie.
did you think,
"XiaoMei yao qu na yi ge xue xiao ar? Deng yi xia wen ta."
"Which school does she want to go to? I'll ask her later"
did you?

SO what Bukit Panjang Govt High??
I DO NOT WANT TO GO THERE!
dont i have a choice?
you gave me my life, you can take it too.
but, if u decided to give me my life, you should let me take control of it.
you are my parents. i respect u.
whatever i do, i'll do it after asking you.

all im asking for is to respect me too.
i have my life, i have feelings and i get hurt too.

From this post, u guys can clearly see i had a quarrel with my parents.
But its ok now(:
i just wanted to vent my anger.