HELLOS!

okays , have not been blogging for a few days, cause my comp was DOWN. aw. but my dad's getting a new laptop for us soon! ;D whahs. happy! oh yeahs !

&some off topic thing,
P. i guess members of our clique would know what that means ehs? yups, she's finally spoken up. shes asking difficult questions, asking things that , when we answered truthfully, would definately hurt her. but what were we to do? we could not tell her the truth, we could not tolerate her attitude. i mean, no normal person would pull a super black face all day, would they? yes, partly i admit , the reason comes from us. we ignored her, we left her out. but hey, couldn't she get the message? yes, we do not like her, for various reasons for various people. the problem is, she still sticks to us like super glue o.o i had wanted to tell her why all these are happening, why we were ignoring her, so that she could realise her own mistakes instead of thinking its our fault, we were unreasonably finding fault with her. but kf gently reminded that it was not fair to ask her to change cause we wanted her to. thinking again, i agreed. NO ONE HAS TO CHANGE TO PLEASE OTHERS. it was not her fault we didnt like her. everyone's different. everyone has their very own set of friends. unfortunatly, i cannot say i am one of them. i do not like her, i admit, though the reasons will be kept private. however, i assure you, they are valid reasons. with evidence. i would not accuse someone unless it is true. however, the message was brought clear, she had wanted to stay. she should have known that this would happen if she stayed. we would get more vexed, we would try harder to leave her out. and now, she asks us a very difficult question to answer. this is an YES/NO answer. 2choices. but how were we to choose? if we said YES, we do not like you, the 'friendship' would crumble. yes, i admit, i have not much feelings even if it crashed. the problem is, the seating arrangement. i shall not elaborate much, since it would be hard to picture with words. yes, that is a big obstacle. i would not let my friend suffer . yet i can do nothing. yes, i am selfish. if i really wanted to help, there would be plenty of ways. but in order to help her, i have to sacrifice myself. i am not god, so i had chosen to do nothing. for that, i am truely sorry. on the other hand, if we said NO, we dont hate you, what would happen? in my point, she would carry thing glimmer of hope till the end of secondary school life, and i would think that is leading her on. i do not agree with this. but to do the opposite, it would hurt her. most people would choose the NO answer, to put a rest to this issue, to spare her to agony . but, at this point of time, i really have no answer to this question. im sure we would find an answer in the end, but whichever it is, i really hope she can move on even though we had hurt her . and for that, i apologized for leading her on from the start. we had not liked her from the start. but like now, she asked a very difficult question. and OH YES.THE LOOK IN HER EYES! ohgod. 'innocient' . anyways, i hope this issue wont affect us for too long!

BYEBYES.

[omg. now then i realised wad a long post this was. o.o]