why are all mothers so worried about money these days? thats all my mother talks to me about recently. but, why? i mean, i know the economy's rising rapidly, and its really hard of my parents to even earn that tiny little cent. but does it mean that it would affect the beautiful realitionship we have with mothers?

in my point, mothers should
talk to their children as often as possible, even when they are busy.
a mother would be , and should be , the very first person to notice their child's moods.
a mother would scold, but not often.
a mother would, rather than scold, try to reason and talk to their child when they are in the wrong.
a mother would stay by her child's decision, no matter what.
a mother should not be a wet blanket to her child's life ambition.
a mother would love and care for her child, even when they are adults and have families.
a mother would spend time to understand her child.
a mother would cheer up her child when they are sad.
a mother would encourage her child to go for what they believe in.
a mother would put her child's interest above others.
a mother would treat all her children just the same.
a mother would make her child feel loved and wanted.
a mother would chat aimlessly with her child , just to understand her more.
a mother would understand that being a good and responsible mother is not just giving 3meals to her children daily.
a mother would give generously, without expecting returns.
a mother would simply, love and care so much about her child, even if it meant breaking her heart by sending them to jail to redeem themselves.

A Mother, Is A God-send From Heaven, To Kids, To Simply Love Them.

i love my mother so much, but she doesnt realise it. my parents always said that they love me the best among my siblings. but they keep that love in them. if they keep it inside, how would i know for sure? i will have no sense of security. im so sensitive, i get hurt by every little careless word they say. &when i cry, she thinks its annoying, since it would seem like her fault. she would scold and beat me, but all i want is a loving hug from her. It seemed like ages since i last hugged her. & as i grew up, i began to understand more and more. but it just made the thorn in my heart stick in deeper and deeper, to a point of no return. even if i pull the thorn out forcefully, the scar of hurt will always stay. always.

When will i get the love i've been missing all these years?

everyone says that mothers are a child's best pillar of support. but what if that pillar is no longer available? what if , they dont love us anymore?

[specially for dear laopo(:]

deardeardear laopo,

Treat this as a letter allright,
a letter to let the whole world how much i love u + care for u .
but wait. i gotta say this first. DUN GET DIGUSTED. lols, its purely true friendship.
okays im gonna start!

Firstly, i really gotta say WHY i simply LOVE you.(:
cause u really love me lots too. u ask me, how can i tell? from the ways u can be there for me as well! so many examples, mainly cause of my family probs. ur the one i can turn to when i really , seriously feel like breaking down. i guess everyone has that ONE true friend i guess. well, it jus so happens, ur the one for me. i still remember the time i felt so lost , ur the one i messaged, & u comforted me and made me feel oh-so-good! many of my friends dont know the true me, i hide behind a mask, crying silently. but recently, i got so affected by ur mood. when ur sad, im sad, when ur happy, im hyper. u influenced me. does that prove the strength of our friendship? i think so.(: ur the one who noticed whenever i have problems and asks me why. ur the one who makes me feel comfortable when i am silent. u know me so well, is there any secrets i can hide from u?

and ur forgiving / kind/ beautiful heart. u can give generously, not asking for benefits. sometimes u give so much, i actually said thats stupid. but u shrugged off my comments, saying thats all right. to you, giving off to others to let them be happy would be also a kind of happiness to you, i guess. my dear, please. its good to think of others, but thinking of yourself once in a while is not all that bad either.

so dear laopo. everything you and i are experiencing right now is all part and parcel of life. everyone must go through it. but the important thing is how to stand up and face it bravely. i did it once. i believe that u can do it too. & when everything's over, we can walk on happily, glad that we were brave. im glad that u thought of me right away when u experience problems. im really happy that i can play a part for u when ur experiencing a bad time. i feel so happy that, at least, we have each other in this part of life.

remember that there are so many other things in life, still waiting for us. dont let them down. walk on! be a brave girl. (:

Siumin,

JIAYOU

HELLOS!

today [9/7/08}
IS E-LEARNING DAY!
woo.. lols. tomorrow too.

but guess wad? i was being dumb jus now. i kept kaobei my friends say e-learning website nth de. HOW DO?! den sihui told me its 9am. not 8 -.- omg. i have the schedual but i didnt look at it. dumb. & i disturbed Lishan too, when she was watching a movie >< SORRY! & KaiXin is giving off free hamsters! OMFG! i WANT ;(( but my mum has a phobia of furry animals. wahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. i swear, im gonna get a pet next time & intro my mum to the love & joy of PETS.

OH YAH. i finish watching DN ANGEL le!
woooooooooooo..
love that show, i mean anime. i mean, i usually dun watch anime, i watch Idol Shows, but this time, i watched ONE episode on Channel U & i fell in love with daisuke and riku IMMEDIATELY. & the storyline's perfect. not confusing or anythings. daisuke is super duper super duper KAWAWI! lols. I LOVE HIM xDD but dadong is still mah fav~
BUT. i dun really feel like watching Dan Cao Fan T.T
i means, i just dun feel like watching it. it doesnt give me the motivation , like its super nice, den i cannot stop watching it >< but den DN ANGEL does! i watched the whole 26episodes in 3days! ;DD lols.

okays a bit off topic le. anyways, i have nth to do so im gonna go dig up some old shows to watch! ;DD wahhahahah.

BYEBYE

{yes, i know this is a lame post!]

HELLOS!

lols i got a super big shock just a few mins ago! i couldnt login my blogger -_-
& i thought that it was cause my comp got virus. it actually said the e-mail add i typed doesnt exist! den i linked it to nuffnang, since nuffnang has some site problems now too.
in the end, guess wad, its just cause i typed the wrong email add. i used my yahoo acc. -_- DOTS.

lols. anyways, YESTERDAY. super fun cans?
i met dardar at lot 1, den go ThisFashion buy my purple dress! cause i felt like buying it + its cute! ;DD & i wore it to the concert! lols. den sihui say i pangseh her, cause i nvr tell her beforehand, lols. my bad! and just when we were going to meet them, kellyn suddenly ask me ehs. u got bring ticket? den i was like a piece of glass shattered right in front of me! i replied. NO. omg. den she very calm seh. say go home take lo. lols. den we went home and met the rest at causeway. AND OFF WE WENT TO REPUBLIC! take bus one stop nia! LOL.

& we zilian lots. lols. next time den post up e pics.
the concert was good man, they really worked hard. ;D 2thumbs up!
& we waited for them, played with balloons while waiting. (:

[suddenly feel like emo]

& i saw the guy i like! >< i mean, he's really super cute + shuai + capable! i dun think anyone else knows that i like him, including himself. i feel so defeated! i mean, i really like him, but i cant tell anyone else. im not ready for a BGR. i know it myself. but yet, i really feel like letting myself go, jump right into a relationship. i know its wrong, so im keeping everything to myself. i think that im really dumb. why fall for him when i know that im not going to get into a BGR with him? but thats how i feel. so i can only look at him from a side, and keeping silent. lols. am i becoming mushy? i can only wait till im ready..

[heys my gans dun ask or breath a word about this in front of me yeahs, i just wanna transfer my thoughts from my heart to my blog. hms. as for behind me,,, well. i dunnoe :P]

BYEBYES. (:

HELLOS!

whahahah. first thing:

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TO MY SISTER! ;DD

[before that i pei-ed my sister go Pizza Hut eat with her friend, whahaha. ]

& so, yesterday we went to BBP for Cafe Cartel~
jealous lehs. my birthday we go eat $20 western! hers is $80 lehs! LOL.
hahs. but hor, i dun really think its worth it. hms. like its super ex but its nothing like those.. once u put into ur mouth will like super duper like it, & want to keep eat and eat and eat! instead, we were more of like stuffing ourselves crazy. the portions were BIG. & so we like didnt really XIANG SHOU de food. but its actually allright. (: its just that i really do prefer CHEAP & NICE LongJohnSilver! hahs. DEE-LISH!. we shopped for a short while, and i bought MacDonalds icecream! whahaha. love it. plain cone + sprinkles just 80cents! lols. im falling deeper and deeper into love with it~ i dun like the sundae.. so chocolatey~ will become fat+ SUPER DUPER SWEET. im being health concious these days! but i really like the MacCafe's coffee. *SLURP* wahaaha. oh i forgot im slipping off the topic fast xD
& anyways, there was a LaserFlair roadshow, and we bought lots of shows! my mum bought her fav singers, lols. & my dad comfirm is english shows. as for me + my jie, we wanted SECRET! lols. cheapcheap de. whahaha.

BUT. guess wad. go home, watch, spoil alot lorhs. nowonder sell so cheap. HMPH.

& today, CONCERT DAY. lols.
later going eat SAKURA. whahhaha. im so gonna go on an empty stomach~ lols.

I GIVE U A SONG TO SING!

HELLOS!

whahahah. im here again. i feel bored , & no ones talking to me on MSN. so i shall BLOG. ;D

TODAY is thursday, 3/7/08 .

when i bused to lot 1 in the morning, super exciting cans?! i saw a .. okay heard 1st, den saw a civil defence car speed off towards lot 1! WOW. and when i arrived in lot 1, EVERY SINGLE ALARM IN THE MALL WAS OFF. how cool is that?! hahs. actually oso dunnoe wad happen larhs. but i noticed cause it disturbed my song! RARR. i still can remember that i was listening to "wang zi de xin yi" lols.
but i tink nth really serious. cause when the civil defence car arrived at lot 1, some SMRT guy was like directing it into a suitable position! LOL. totally like when there's a jam and there would be a guy directing the traffic! hahs.

oh yeahs, jus discovered my yesterday's post, half-way typed when LBL call for 'meeting' lols. & thats when he told me on National day i'll be like. taking the flag frm the sec4/5?! OMG. && my worst dream came true. he told me to wear the MMC tee. oh crappppp. dui lian dao bu xing. help me dig a hole ppl, that shall be my home for the next 5years. super QING TIAN PI LI CANS?!

&& i was surfing through my friend's blogs, &i discovered that they like all have same age/ around their age cousinsand everything! so good. then whenever they have like family gatherings , LIKE MY FAMILY, super good cans. got common topic. den wont be bored. all my cousins are like super older or super younger. NO COMMON TOPIC.