Day 07- A picture of someone/something that has the biggest impact on you.

(Top: Real Ikeuchi Aya. Bottom: Erika Sawajiri, plays Aya)


Her name is Ikeuchi Aya. I know her from 1 Litre Of Tears.

I remember watching the drama series a year or two back.
This show brought tears to my eyes, literally. I remember watching this in the dark, crying silently.
I really wonder how she managed.
I cried because i felt for her.
I cried because she was so noble.
I cried because i know.
I know i couldnt be like her.

One illness that took a girl's life, dreams and hopes away. But not fully.
That illness lost. Aya won.
She held on to her everything to the very last point.
She never gave up. She tried.
It was a losing battle, but she dragged on the game.
She played, she continued on.

Imagine. Would you be able to do that?
I wouldnt. I would despair, cry all day, and lock myself up.
I might even end my life eariler, to avoid looking at myself in that situation.
A stupid ending, but it might be better for me.

Ah, she really changed my life. I still remember the quotes.

"People should dwell on the past, Its enough to try your best in all that you're doing now."

"Dont give up on trying to speak. For those people who are really listening, they will definitely understand."

"I really don’t want to say things such as “I want to go back as how things were before” . I recognize how I am right now, and I will continue to live on."

"Regret. Pitiful. It’s okay if I’m in pain by myself. But I’m also bringing trouble to the people around me."


I am inspired and moved, to become a better person.

Thankyou, Ikeuchi Aya.