So, these days, i cant sleep.

Actually, nothing is really bothering me. (Except for that. And i wont call that 'bothering' either.)

I just dont know what im really thinking about.

I mean, i know what im thinking.

I dont know why im thinking about that though.

It happened so long ago.

It passed.

But really, these days i feel so out of...... confidence.

Dont get me wrong.

Im not picking on myself.

I know who i am (:

Just, i sigh alot these days.

I think, why?

And i find no reasons. :l

I just dont know.

This is gonna be a hard period of time for me.

One thing i know - that is still on my mind.

I came to know about things.

Things said in a jokingly manner.

But, it gave me a huge impact.

I thought to myself "Did i really do that? Is that the impression i give people?"

Thats wrong. Even if i really did that, i didnt mean to.

I keep thinking about those sentences.

"Sorry." keeps popping up in my mind.

I want to be in someone's embrace, i want him to tell me "Its okay. Its gonna be okay."

Why does all these attack me all at once?

Whatever.

Emotionless Siumin shall emerge. Until the day normal Siumin thinks shes back.

'I promise that im gonna try.'