I..... stumbled upon something i didnt really mean to stumble upon. Hahaha.

I read it, then it hit me. I mean, i knew of it before this, but after i read it, did it finally go into my head.
Like hey, this is real. It gave me a push, making me fall back and look at the situation once again.

I did not know. Well to be honest, i didnt know of many things la. I know, i am that muddled.

Talking about this, i cannot believe, how i believed something for months and months, and after so many times of 'confirmation'. And i still can believe the wrong thing, BY MYSELF. -___-

So many emotions, fear, guilt, anticipation, more fear, more confusion. I wont say that the negative feelings overpowers the positive ones, but they definitely balances out.

To be honest, im not sure which side i should lean towards on. Especially after those. I am not sure if i can be able to feel the emotions of what would come if i leaned towards a side.

Before this, i was nonchalant. Cause, i felt that things were just gonna work out by themselves, we didnt have to do anything. But after this, i wonder. I really wonder.

What should i do? Or should i still stand by, and not have any action at all?

I have no idea.