I know i need to sort them out, to get order in my life, and make sure things go smooth. 

But for now, i think i kinda like this feeling of unorganized events. Let me keep them for a while..

One thing's for sure, i know for myself that i dont cherish people enough, until they're gone. Do i start thinking back and feel stuff i should have felt earlier, and expressed before it was too late. 

Its something that has always been happening, and however hard i try to prevent myself from doing such bad things, someway, somehow, i still cant do it. I still neglect, i still take for granted. :l

Hais. This will be something to haunt me in the future. 

Another thing - What counts as a limit? I do have my limits. For sure. Maybe to others, its not even a limit cause it would be too much to count as a limit. 

But who's to judge? Everyone has their own mindset and thinking, no two people would be exactly the same.  But maybe you're right, and im wrong. But if you ask me honestly, right now, i am totally feeling the trust lost. Yeah i do understand the worries and the anxiousness, but i feel the trust more than anything else.

I feel more of a sad emotion, purely because i feel that you dont trust me, and i doubt myself, for not emitting enough logic to make people trust me. 

Or maybe you dont trust him. But what about me? It goes both ways, friend. 

I dont want to upset any party, but yeah, it sucks to be the middleman.