What is love?

I wanna come here and be confident, saying that Love is blah blah blah. But to be honest, my answer is - I dont know.

Perhaps the 'correct' answer would be Love is Self-Sacrificing?

When you love someone, you would want to do everything for that person. Be it going somewhere, refraining from doing something, or even being ok with him doing something you dislike.

You know you're in love when you think of the other party all the time. When you go shopping in departmental stores, you find yourself more attracted to the things he likes and wears, rather than your own stuff. Ok actually i still pay alot of attention to my own shopping (haha), but i found myself wanting to put things on my guy, making him look good. :)

But one thing is for certain. My 'past' catches me off guard all the time.

I do not argue or resist this fact - I was a 'boy-magnet'. I dont mean that boys are attracted to me. I mean i am attracted to boys! (Naturally.) But not in a opposite gender way. I honestly thought them as friends. Boys are so much easier to talk to. They do not take offense at my sarcasm, instead they take it as a challenge and try to rebut me (which they fail usually of course). But to me, it turned into a game, but sparks my competitive spirit and obviously makes me more interesting (to them) and interested (me in them).

I am interesting to them, as they have (probably) never seen a girl that outgoing, that 'man-like'(?). I mean, its true isnt it? I like games, i talk shit, i dont take offense easily on 'man' topics. (Yeah my guy friends ALWAYS talks about sex in front of me. Not TO me, but in FRONT of me.)

Its like, im a guy in a girl's body. I guess thats why i have so many guy friends?

And naturally, since I am a girl, and them a guy, sometimes, sometimes! I 'flirt'. I admit. I 'flirt' because i want to have a closer, a step forward in our current relationship.

Why do I say 'flirt', instead of outrightly declaring i'm a flirt?

There is a difference (yah yah i defending myself can).

When i say 'Whats upppppppp', instead of a simple 'Hi', guys automatically have this thought 'She likes me! What should I do now? Should I accept it? Or should I act cool, reject first?'

My boyf actually told me the above line. So its from a real guy's view!

I talk like that all the time.... to guys, girls, family, friends alike. But obviously people that knew me for only a short period of time wont know that, isnt it? So they misunderstand. They misunderstand ME.

But slowly, after we interact more, talk more, they finally get it - yeah she doesn't particularly like just me. She's just like that (yay for friends that actually understands!)

But I do not deny, I have tried to go into a step further, trying to transform a friendship into a love-relationship.

And yes, (some of) them have failed. Its ok, its part and parcel of life.

-tbc-