hahaha! i feel so good now!

i dont know why, i just do. :D
&that last post really released all the stress outta me!
i feel...so free(:

yays!
& now i dont feel angry over that issue, instead sad. ms chua scolded, or rather reprimanded me on copying everything from websites.

she was fierce..

i feel so sad, like the first time i actually felt i handled the issue wrongly..
but on the other hand, we really had no time, no time.
i wanted to tell mr yew why we copied it, why we didnt do it like he wanted. but... i started thinking about how the other teachers would say.. &i felt scared.

&now, i'll just have to finish a wonderful copy of the work for him, and get it done and over with..
oh well, everything will soon be over..


Chinese New Year!
CNY is coming so so soon! my dream for the 25th of Jan, cook a full course meal for my family.. (: but my mum is comfirm not gonna agree to it, like she doesnt want me to mess up her kitchen, lols. oh well, i can still try(:

before CNY, i wanna get :
extentions/WIG!
new bag, new shoes
polo tee(Before/after)

after CNY:
Samsung YP-S3
save moneys! :D

may all my wishes come true...

still gonna needa do HW.
我不要欠功课欠过年。

再见！:D

shit, i hate clement yew.

he's now our CCA teacher, on top of chemistry -.-
chemistry is terrible enough, always picks on our answers,
i know it's our responsibility to finish and complete the exercises, but those assignments are so ____ hard man. the problem is not about us not putting in effort, but the stupid fact that we fucking cant do and understand it!
AND YET?
time and time again, you're always 'sighing' and feeling so 'sad' like we dont even care about
THE SUBJECT THAT WE ARE TAKING, THE SUBJECT THAT WE ARE TAKING FOR O LEVELS.
dont you realise, you're being a little unreasonable? it seems to me, you're more afraid that when we dont do well for our exams, YOU WILL GET IT. YOU WILL BE 'LOOKED DOWN' UPON BY OTHER CHEMISTRY TEACHERS. fuck!
you always sound like we are hopeless, like you try soooooooooooooooooooo hard, yet we dont even appriciate it.

& now, CCA. suddenly tell us to do project, short notice, in groups of FIVE. five people, get information, compile together send to you, YOU KNOW HOW HARD THAT IS? especially if there are people who dont cooperate(not that i have those probs) even getting people from THREE different classes to get together and discuss, its difficult to get everyone there! so, i chose to nevermind, i just do by myself. i had like a pile of homework, 2tests, and still need to spend time look for the things, READ IT, EDIT IT?

im sorry, but THANKS BUT NO THANKS!

to sum everything up,
MR CLEMENT YEW IS
1) unreasonable
2) insensitive
3) harsh
4) unconsiderate

well, i just hate him. fuck, i hate him so much, i actually said 'fuck' four times -.-

gotta rush for decorations projects.

so tired! been thinking so much these days, i really think, I NEEDA LOVE BABY!

haha! damn random, i know. i really feel that i need love, as in, BOYLOVE. HAHAHAHA!

yes, i know, so buayhiaobai! so weird and ironic! i havent been wanting it all through my four years, and now, LAST YEAR O LEVELS, suddenly have this feel, makes me excited! LOL :D

but so many people with relationships end up; not quite as they expected, and well, it obviously hurts. i dont wanna jump into a r/s, and get myself hurt and unhappy.

but it made me think too... there are also couples which blossoms into happiness! its confusing.

but come to think of it, i really wish for a shoulder to cry on when im feeling sad, a heart to share my happiness with, it sometimes really made me think that that would make my life, like, finally complete?

&then, there is the thing of finding the right who. i've crushed on many people many times, but most of them , or should i say, are infuations. its never really my true real feelings in the end. this makes me wonder, when will i finally see my Mr Right? how would i know?

i really hope for someone to love me for me, and cares for me, as much as i do for him.

i need a boyfriend! :O

this is all your fault KellynHo! :D

yays! finally have a teeny-weeny bit of time to blog a little! :D

i've been so busy these few days, i've hardly had time to get some rest and catch up on stuffs, sometimes school times really tire people out. SO TIRED. i've been getting irregular sleeptime these days, MY BLACKBLACK PANDA EYES! :( + my contacts, super dark :( ihateit...

&now, must study for tomorrow's test, i didnt go for the november extra lessons, and im seriously lagging behind.


im really really hoping for a 10pointer this year! then, at least i can choose any course i want!

like the lecturer at Ngee Ann Poly said
" Get good grades first, then you can choose." "If you get good grades, YOU choose the course; if not, the course choose YOU!"

so true.

so many courses, so difficult to choose. my dad said " I tell you la, you wont be able to get a course you like de la" i dont know what that meant, but it feels like we're studying for..... the sake of studying, there's no joy and fun in learning anymore. it just feels like a part of life. a pace everyone must go through.

sometimes, i think i've ruined my life. i choose the wrong path. but it's the one i chose! i must go on. perhaps, one day i will look back, and say, "I took the right path."

haha! am i making sense? Olevels are coming, so soon, so fast. no time, no energy.

stressed up, but yet, must turn the stress into energy, to keep going on. but, for me, i just dont understand, why must time pass by so easily, so quickly? if only, we could all stop time, give everyone more time. TIME, may help to make more right decisions, think more carefully.

im drifting furthur and furthur away!! ha! enough.
maybe this will be enough for everyone to think back, and think about what happened, and possibly, regret things, cherish things, forgive people, and make everything allright once more.